i originally wanted to write this here. but the server was down so i went the xanga route. so ima copy and paste this bad boy.

i guess...

"...love just isn't enough."

that's what she uttered to me. that's the second time someone has said that to me in the past week. what's the world coming to? i know in my world, love conquers all. in my world, love is all you need. and i believe love is the answer, and i believe love will find a way--did blessed union of souls get it wrong then?

for all you romantic fools out there, it has come to my attention people helplessly fall in love with people they can't be with. they have the love. they just aren't good for each other. so for you idealistic kiddies out there i just wanted to say: i warned you. don't say i didn't warn you.

i've always been someone who loved being in love. it always seemed like it fix a big something in my life. whether that something be an empty void that needed filling up, or that something was a jagged edge that needed to be smoothed out. just something.

so love to me was something special, something super dooper important. more important than my favorite Yankees cap, and more important than my comic book collection with Wolverine #1. yep, it's that special.

and now you're telling me love isn't special? it's really a Louis Vuitton Musette Salsa bag? a Kenneth Cole leather jacket? it's got value but it's not really that special?? good god. hell musta froze over. my world has just shattered into a thousand pieces. a thousand of those really small puzzle pieces you dread putting back together because the picture on the box is so ugly. maybe i'll just go read a book or check some e-mail. this can wait yeah?

i have some news for you. love is always enough. you just have to know whose love you need in your life. like all humans, we are flawed and all fall short. we can do nothing perfectly, because we are not perfect, and so we even love imperfectly.

somethings in life aren't in your control. leave it up to Him. He'll provide no doubt yeah?

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Father's Love Letter

My Child…
You may not know me, but I know everything about you…Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up…Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways…Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered…Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image…Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being…Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring…Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived…Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation…Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book…Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live…Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made…Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb…Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born…Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me…John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love…1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you…1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your father…1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could…Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father…Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand…James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs…Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope…Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love…Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore…Psalm 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing…Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you…Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession…Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul…Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things…Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me…Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart…Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires…Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine…Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager…2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles…2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you…Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart…Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes…Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth…Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus…John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed…John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being…Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you…Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins…2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled…2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you…1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love…Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me…1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again…Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen…Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father…Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…Will you be my child?…John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you…Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad. Almighty God
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re-reading my posts, i feel like all i do is complain or whine about something. or speak very vaguely.
NO MORE. im too tired of it. but this will forever be my bitch out place on the web.