i feel so alive.
it's so weird because this past weekend i felt so crappy.
it wasn't a physical thing, it was pure mental.
i felt like i was behind in studies, even tho it's our first week back and nothing is due for another week.

this sense of urgency, i hate it but i love it too.

missed my classes today because of some drama the night before and was still stuck in the weekend mentality.

good thing panda got me to the libes and we went from 6-2pm. with a lil break inbetween to get to our chapter meeting.

this is it son. i feel a sense of accomplishment. a sense of worth. i can own this if i wanted to. just didn't do it sooner.

i love studyin with panda. with other people, esp girls, i always end up talking to them, chit chat.

a waste of fucking time.

but with panda, we don't need that bullshit. i get my shit done.
talk is enough on the walk back home.
talk is in neccessary spurts.
talk is controlled.

me and him are gonna hardcore this year.
grace wants to study too but she's a girl.
we'll see.