You know what's extremely silly?

When you work so hard and believe in something so much, you'd do anything to attain it. I mean, something you thought you really wanted. Something you thought you really needed.

And when you finally "see the light" you feel so foolish. You think to yourself: "Good lawd. Why did I ever feel so strongly about this?"

stupid.

BULLSHIT.

This year I've learned a lot. The year isn't over yet so I guess I'ma continue learning more.

One thing I've decided is that:

I refuse to let other people affect my relationship with God.

so, f u.

you can't deal with this right now?

i can't deal with this EVER.

goodbye.