emotions.

i just realized how ephemeral in nature they are.
i was feeling one way just now and just reading one of my friends entries brought over me a flood of emotions.
it's safe to say the flood of emotions were very different from my initial "feeling."

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One idea that won't escape my head from cedar campus was something one of our IV staff workers said in our gospel outline session:

"when you look at the life of Jesus, you can't help falling in love with Him."

God. isn't it so very true.

Then right now, in the midst of my emotion changing random thought process ways I started to remember this passage I loved in The Fountainhead. When I go back home maybe I'll try typing it up but basically it was this whole shpeel the characters are making about Howard Roark, the main character of the book. To it's core, it talked about Roark's immortality, and how that was defined by his inability to change (or from another interesting spin, this is his actual ability). Roark knows what he wants, and refuses to change. He is not like a chameleon, adapting to its enviornment.

No, he does not stray from the path he has set out before him. The enviornment can change all it wants, times gets rough, but he never changes his strategy when it comes to his beliefs, his morals. And that is where his immortality lays. He has immortalized his life in that way.

Forever. Eternal.

And when you read The Fountainhead, you can't help falling in love with Roark. You can't help pushing for him to succeed or begging him in his mind to just succumb to the world. Yet he never compromises. Not even a little, not just for a little bit until times get better. Nope.

And so doing a little free association of mine, when I think of immortal, I think of God. Jesus. Holy Spirit. (ok fine, maybe not that last one)

And I think of why someone would fall in love with the character of Jesus. And essentially it's the same thing.
Jesus lived an amazing life. In the bible it's very clear the character of Jesus. Though it's a testimony of a bunch of people, his character never contradicts. eople who read the bible a lot can get a deeper understanding of who Jesus is.

So one book is written by Ayn Rand the atheist. The mysticism lover.
And another book is written by committee over a span of many years, sometimes considered a historical text, with no contradictions.

Interesting huh?