I THINK...

...i'm a terribly confused boy.

a few days ago i was sittin a car with em and grace, cruisin around the city with nothing to do. i mentioned to them that it was weird hearing them talk about sex so much cause i'm not use to it. well, to be more exact, now that i think about it more, i'm really not use to hearing girls talk about sex so openly.

either way. i got the feeling grace and em thought i was a big prude, cause they kept egging me saying things like:"do we make you uncomfortable?" blah blah, yadi yadi yadi... and i thought outloud and said:

am i the only virgin among all of us?

and well, yeah, excluding elmo, yes. yeppity doo da rah?.

and they started comforting things like: "it's ok dave, we don't think any less of you."

THINK ANY LESS OF ME?

holy crap. for a few minutes i was actually trying to prove to them how dirty, scandalous, horny, perverted, i really am and how i'm..well...just like them. hah!

then i realized. wtf am i thinking. why is it bad that i'm a virgin? why are they trying to console me? why am i trying to prove them wrong?

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anyway, i realized what bugged me from the conversation. i think ever since i started going to college 3 years ago, sex has become an open topic discussed regularly. and of my friends in college, my closest friends are bros. and well, they're guys, and we talk sex all the time. ok, not all the time, we take breaks to punching each other in the balls from time to time.

so yeah, and all my closest girl friends are..well...christian, and from my fellowship. and so i'm not use to close female friends of mine talking about sex. and since this is the first time in almost 3 yrs i'm back chilling in nyc with old friends, it's weird how things have changed.

all i gotta say is:

bring on the sex talk. and yes, all my female friends are dirty skanks.

jp.