wow. haven't touched this blogger in a long long time...

so..last night..i had this awful feeling again. this feeling that i've felt once or twice before.
this terrible feeling that, perhaps i had lost something special. something that, if i had the courage to go through with a long time ago, perhaps i wouldn't be in this position right now.
but i wussed out and became one of those fickle people i always hate. and now, all i'm left with is a bag of "what ifs?" and a simple regret.