i just finished watching vanilla sky.
it's just given me a weird vibe.
i dunno what's wrong with me but sometime between HS and college i started to get real sappy. like, i remember going into movies and having a perturbed look on my face as i see my mom and sis crying watching something like the joy luck club. now lately, some of these movies make me just wanna ball. lol.
i dunno. movies like my sassy girl and stuff are deadly because i think i'm one of those people who are in love with love. i'm sure u know plenty of people like that. the thing is, i don't think i've been in love with love for a long time now--the whole idea doesn't quite eat away at my soul as it once did in JHS and HS where, ofcourse, EVERY KID is suppose to find true love and live that happy life.
but sappy romantic movies like vanilla sky reminds me of that feeling and it rocks my world upside now. it makes me appreciate true love since i don't think i've ever experienced it but to see it on the big screen of someone else's perfect love lost, it just makes me sad to think something special achieved has just as quickly been lost.
i wonder what tomorrow will bring and what my life will be like in ten years.
as i prepare to graduate i fear the real world and i fear consequences and decisions.

"every minute is another chance to turn it all around."

i don't know what happiness is to me. it changes all the time it seems.