you know what i realized?
i'm so weird. like...i think i really like hanging out with the wrong types of people. ok fine, maybe wrong is too strong of a word to use. it's more like, i enjoy socializing and partying with girls that i know i would never go out with so sometimes i'm afraid i'll give off the wrong vibe (the i-like-you-vibe). i just love chillin with girls who are fun u know?

last night, i met a bunch of new people. 2 of the girls we drank with were like mad young and totally different from me. i drank with one of them till early in the morning until she ended up making me puke. lol. what the heck right? she was a TINY lil girl too. anyway. not to take anything away from them as people, because they were really chill, and good people u know?

but sometimes i wonder why i enjoy hanging out with them and spend my time hanging out with them when i could never see any future potential in them. maybe i'm just feelin old and everything is getting more serious. but it just seems to me i keep putting myself in situations that doesn't help me move up...progress as a person..

i dunno. my head is spinnin still and i sound like a crackhead. nm.