i had the weeeeeirdest dream.

i dreamt that somehow i died and went to heaven. but you say that people don't mean it literally, they usually mean it figuratively as if something really good happened to them. no, i awoke in a familiar place that was really different. you ever play Zelda on SNES? where there are 3 worlds? like the regular world, the darkness world and the light world? it was almost like another dimension but different.

i ended up in heaven..but it looked like earth.

i walked around places like my old home but people were chilling in all the rooms..in the hall ways...i finally find my mom and dad (even tho they aren't deceased in real life) and they're like, wow, you're here. and when i see them...i immediately know i'm in heaven for some reason (the weirdest part of it all inretrospect). at first i don't believe it..and i try calling my friends, but the numbers don't go thru... i try watching tv but there are limited channels in heaven, and all the channels don't talk about what's happening on earth. i felt so alone in heaven, i really wanted to go back. then i see beavis there for some reason and he's like, yeah i'm here too. and i'm wondering..why da heck are u here..and he said something like, oh..i went to sleep and never woke up. shrug.

so i get this uneasy feeling like..o my god, i have to wait possibly another half century before my friends arrive. and i get really nostalgic and i try to somehow get in touch with all those people from my past, say all those things u want to say to them before you die, except in this case i was already dead.

then somehow i'm in this weird restaurant bar/grill and i see all the bros... and i see all these new bros that i never met before..a lot of time has passed. i see some of the old bros like AI in particular..just sitting with his gf..lifeless at the table...and people can actually see me..but they don't recognize me..and some people can't see me at all... i try talking to a few bros but they don't recognize me at all and briefly walk away. i ask..wtf is this gathering why does it seem like everyone is all lifeless. and mcfly is like..oh..it's inbetween classes break..we use to do it at chili's but now we do it here.

and for some reason that made sense to me.

i walk to another part of the bar and someone notices me. i stare at this old guy and he looks back at me with recognition. i walk toward him and his family and suddenly behind me a guy calls out YO DAVID! so i turn around immediately but it turns out the guy was saying hello to the old man who also happened to be named david apparently. i sat down with his wife and daughter and they all looked at me. i asked them..woah...can you guys see me? and they're like..no....but the old uy goes: but i feeeeel the presence of david chan here.

yeah..i dunno..so i walk thru parts of this new lambda house that looks like in crappy condition..and all the furniture is out on the lawn like they been evicted or they're forced to move. for some reason it made me sad to see the state of the chapter and i really wanted to come back and save it.

then i end up going back to heaven, and apparently i have a group of friends who sneak with me out of heaven occassionally. and i try checking on the web, and making phone calls, but none of that works. and nothing on the web related to the real world. it only had information on heaven stuff.

so at this point i told myself: DOOD. THIS HAS GOT TO BE A DREAM. WAKE UP. AND I WILLED MYSELF TO WAKE UP.

but it didn't work..i think i mighta half woke up in real life but fell back asleep. but this dream was gettin me mad stressed out and anxious and i didn't want it continuing.

i think in the course of the dream i woke up a couple of time in real life on my bed, but i fell back asleep thinking i didn't get myself to really wake up...er...hard to explain.

then for some reason someone mentioned guardian angel.

and for some reason there is this blond girl...and she needs an angel or something..and one of my friends from heaven walks into a room while it's really really bright at the moment she turns around so she's blinded..and he offers her a rose and whispers something to her and walks out the door. the bell boy, or the hotel, or her assistant, closes the window and she walks up to him asking who that was. and the guy replies: you know what, i can't describe it.

and at that point it made me question whether i really was in heaven. i saw some people in this 'world' that didn't deserve to be in heaven. maybe i had to be a guardian angel for someone so i can be an angel that gets its wings so i can goto heaven and everyone else who was okay just chillin around in this alternate world could stay here forever.

WOAH. fini.

i feel like i don't wanna remember this dream anymore. it made me feel reall desparate and made me feel nostalgic like i lost all control..and my life was taken away from me...