This quarter has been going by so quick.
It's so weird...because I'm so unbelieveably ready to get into the real world. I'm so sick of school. Yet at the same time, I don't even understand why I'm trying so hard in my classes. I mean, I NEED these classes to graduate yet at the same time these classes mean nothing in the long run. One quarter of classes will not make or break my GPA so why am I trying so hard? This has got to be one of my best quarters academically, at the same time, it's THE roughest quarter I have ever experienced because I'm also part-timing at PepsiCo 20 hours a week. I mean, what the hell am I thinking? I could just stay under the gun and try to pass with Cs but it's like I'm almost determined to prove to myself and other people I can do it. I think my parents, my sister, and ever my advisor heavily recommended I DON'T part time and take a full course load and do interviews because it would be close to 60-80 hour weeks essentially. I mean, I don't even need to take a full courseload but I want to get my concentration. I really wish I could drop 2 of my classes---well technically I can but I'm actually enjoying all four classes so much I really don't want to. I think I'm very stubborn in that way. I want to prove doubters wrong and so I will WILL myself through any means to succeed.

I don't even have time to write meaningful xanga posts anymore. I mean, it's true, half my posts are pretty bullshit and just for show, full of pictures, crude comments, and nothing of real value except maybe a little entertainment value on the side. But every once in a while I can bust a deep one that I feel has mass appeal.

Nope...my mind is full of school work and real work...every...single...moment.

I think I'll try to xangaR. I'll tell you how I do later.